Questions.. Questions.. Questions..

Man I feel like the older I get the more questions that I begin to have about life and its purpose.  This past semester I had this class entitled "Philosophy of Education."  By the title of the class one would think that it would be about how to teach kids.  Well, I that could not be farther from the truth.  All it did was make me THINK!!!! We ready several books throughout the class and they began to raise more and more questions about life.. It seems like after every class I would leave just wondering and asking myself more and more questions.. Overall I really did enjoy the class; however, I am glad that for the summer I can hopefully give my mind a break from thinking so deeply : )  Here are just a few questions that I have thought about this semester and most of them throughout this past week.

 

*Ever sit in bed at night and wonder just who you are and why you are here?

*How come when you are little you want to be a grown up so bad but now that I am here I want to be a little kid again?

*Just what is God's purpose for my life?

*Sometimes I feel like I am truly called to be a teacher and other days I wonder can I really do this the rest of my life?

*Just how much does God really love me? (and yes I know the church answer but sometimes it's so hard to really think about it and believe it)

*How did God know what type of family to put me in and why am I so blessed to have grown up in a Christian home when others aren't?

*I am def. the most indecisive person ever and how come when you get older (I feel like) all you did is make decisions.. Will it ever stop or get easier?

*Where will I be in 5, 10 15 years?

These are just some of the questions that have gone through my head over the past couple of months.  For some reason lately my mind has constantly been going and going wondering about things.. I just want to be able to go to sleep one night without having my mind run a hundred miles per hour.  Will it ever stop?

Patience is a virtue

Having patience is defintely not one of my strong points. I am the absolute worst person ever when it comes to being patient and just simply waiting. Like I wrote in an earlier blog, John Weller's song "While I'm Waiting" is getting me through from day to day. That song is such a good reminder that God has an ultimate plan and always knows best. I went for my 2nd interview last week at Cleveland Middle School and am still waiting to hear back. They thought that we would hear back at the end of next week or sometime the next week. Patience is defintely a virtue that I do not have.
While I'm on the issue of school let me just say that I now know why teachers dread TCAP week SO MUCH!! This is my first encounter with the craziness and chaos of TCAP week and it is defintely just that. I have giving tests to 3 students in basically a closet at Ocoee Middle School. Let me just tell you that the first day was Reading and Language Arts. Part I of the test was 76 minutes long and this particular student got finished in 15 mintues, NO LIE, and as teachers this is what we are graded on. Kinda scary huh?!?
This past weekend I spent it working and hanging out with Rader. On Saturday my family from Newport came in for the day and we all hung out. I have some super cute pictures of Rader that I will share once I get them uploaded. I decided to gell his hair and might I add that it looked SO CUTE!!! Pictures to come soon.. Happy Wednesday to everyone!!!

I'm Official.. well almost!

Today was one of the BEST days of my entire life or should I say a huge burden was lifted.  Lately I have been stressing over these Praxis test knowing that I have to pass all of them before being able to get a job next year.  FINALLY!!! I got my last two praxis scores back today and I passed.  I have never felt more relief then I did today.  It was such an amazing feeling because I am almost an official teacher.  God is so good : )  Now all I have to do is pass my next two classes and I am DONE!!! YAY, I absolutely cannot wait to be finished with school and I know some of you are thinking "you won't be saying that for long" but I think going to school for 18 straight years is a whole lot if you ask me.  I go for a second interview at Cleveland Middle this coming Thursday so please pray things work out if they are supposed too! Have a wonderful hump day tom! : )

Growing Up

I always remember when I was little, my grandparents telling me just how quickly times flies by the older that you get.  Man were they so right! The older I get the more time flies.  I remember my first day of college and thinking that I had four more years left and now I am completing my fifth year of college.  I also remember not being able to wait until I was all grown up and now I feel like I am here and it's scary.  Growing up isn't all that it is cracked up to be.  I am currently in the search for a job for next school year.  

I have had an interview at Cleveland Middle and am going back on Wed or Thurs for a second interview so please pray that things work out there if they are supposed too! I am also going up to Hendersonville, TN on April 23 for an informal interview at Hendersonville High School.  They are looking for an assistant coach right now and I am going up there with Coach Rowe and Coach Kiser to get a tour of the school and meet the coach.  It is scary not knowing where or what I will be doing for next year but am learning to completely rely on God throughout all of this.  Please just pray that the Lord will open the doors and close the doors that need to be.  Hopefully here in a couple of weeks I will know about the CMS job but until then I will keep you all updated with the job search!

Bitter Sweet

It feels like it has been forever since I have last updated my blog.  I have lost my camera cord and haven't had a way to upload recent pictures that I have wanted too but finally I have found it!!  Since last blog, my college basketball career has come to an end.  It is definitely bitter sweet.  I am loving the time that I have off and the relaxing that I have been able to do; however, I do miss it already! 

I think it will really start to hit me when they start doing stuff over the summer and especially when games start next year.  Don't get me wrong, I WILL NOT miss working out in the summer, going to Bristol, mulching around Lee's campus, selling ads, Coach Rowe getting mad at us, conditioning in the fall, the awful practices that we have after losing a game, the National Tournament Banquet... In addition to the things I don't miss, there are things that of course I will greatly miss: the girls and the friendships that I have made, the competition, overnight road games, Christmas trips, and the Conference & National Tournaments.  

It's so crazy to look back at my career because there were several times where I never thought I would play for all four years much less 5 years but it was ALL well worth it.  I would never trade in all of the tears, hard work, and laughter that I had over those years.  Here are some pictures from our National Tournament.  I still have some more over the course of the year that I will be posting later.  

So now that I have more time on my hands, I am hoping to be able to blog more! I feel guilty when I read other people's blogs who have kids and a husband and are talking about how crazy their lives are and how they never have time to blog then I look at myself and realize that I have none of that so really don't have a legitimate excuse now to not keep it updated : )  I will be posting my Disney World pictures here in a few days.  Adios!